Sometimes I can't help but think the worst about somethings. Its just how I've been. Like when someone says that they'll call or come over. I instantly think that oh they won't do it. I know what a positive thinker huh. But I am getting better. The doubts and the thinking worst are getting under control. I think I am changing. I think that when I am thinking the worst, my life seems to get horrible or really depressing. So I am going to try to make it so that I don't think the worst but the positive. Maybe my life wouldn't seem so dark and depressing. Maybe I will be able to find the one that is going to love me. And that he is going to help me with the hard times. He is going to be the one that will look at me and probably say, "Damn girl what have I told you about thinking the worst?" Then he would laugh and give me a kiss. He will be the one that will everything okay in the end. He'll be the one that will make all the bad thoughts go away. And replace them with happy thoughts and maybe something more. With happy memories. Happy times. Give me a happy family and a loving home that I want so much. Wow.... a happy home. Maybe someday I'll have one. That is a future that I want to look forward to. A future where I can be the real person that people never see. The girl behind the fan. The girl behind the screen. The girl whose writing might me a difference in someones life and help them out. Well. Thats enough of my thoughts. Maybe I'll have more. Or even a poem or two. Love you all. Peace out.
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