hello :D
pple [well not th pple here] are dying to read my story!
BUT i dont post my stories online cuz som1 might steal it!
GET THAT THROUGH YOUR HEADS!!!!
id b glad to actually post it but pple are so fake they might steal my story and say THEY WROTE IT. so there.
So like Andy,dont b mad at me anymore -.- th story is awesome i jus dnt want pple stealin it.
thank yew :D
-Sue </3
...There's nothing as nice as someone who shares,
your laughter,your secrets,your wishes and cares.
Someone who's there through your good times and tears,
who stays by your side as your friend through the years.
...If i could catch a rainbow,
I would do it just for you.
And share with you its beauty,
On days you're feeling blue.
...If i could build a mountain,
you could call your very own.
A place to find peace,
a place to be alone.
...If i ccould take your troubles,
i would toss them in the sea.
But all the things im finding,
are impossible for me.
...I cannot build a mountain,
or catch a rainbow fair.
But let me tell you what i know best,
a friend whos always there.
Hello pple reading this :D
especially th pple this blog is about :D
if ur not much a reader, dont read. cuz its DAMN LONG! XD
well im jus writin this blog for fun, jus to write abt my best friends :DD
okay,
lets start with number one, and ill write in their fav color :D
Gaviccino :D
also known as "Goo-Goo face" :D
ooooooooookay
well we met long ago, but im not writin abt tht LOL
okay, why do i love him so much?
he never lies to me...and thats VERY special once you think about it...i mean...how many of ur friends lie to you? even abt songs? freaky. and if i tell him to keep a secret, he so does! he doesnt even tell it to his teddy :S or his PS2! which he talks to alot :P
and th best thing he did to me was save my life. i mean really. it was yesterday, when i got left behind by my bf...
i wanted to die so bad...i tried so hard to die... :S yea, i was suicidal at that moment, but thts over. So what happened yesterday was horrible...but thanks to Gavin, i survived.. <33
after drasticly trying to slit open my vein, Gavi told me to wash off the blood...
so yea, i went to th bathroom and insanely washed my hands while Gavi was watching over. as he left to check his email [actually my email] he left me in the bathroom, for about 2 minutes.
i closed th drain of th sink and filled th sink wth water...yea i tried to drown myself in the sink. paranormal huh? th sink? id think th tub -.-
SO, i started like coughing under th water. and Gavi heard me.so he ran lyk a superhero comin 2 save my life. lol. he pulled me out of th water and we talked.
now i know why i want to live. yea i said WANT to live. :} he explained clearly to me. well, pple who knw me very well always hear me say "i have no meaning in life/no one loves me/no one needs me/i dont deserve this much good/why am i alive?/im not needed so why will people care if i die?" and mostly "i want to die/i hate my life."
so, im not sure if its true, but i knw its true abt Gavin since he does love me. so i said "im so lame i cant even kill myself. -.-" then he said something...i forgot :P but then we talked some more...
okay, so heres what he said
"Sue. Listen to me. he's just a guy! hes NOT worth dying for!! i bet millions of guys like you! your very special!! THE guys in ur skewl are just DORKS. they dont know anything! Sue,you know why your friends tell you they dont want you to die?" and so i stop him saying "THEY dont even say that! and plus if they do, THEY DONT MEAN IT! they only say it so i can suck it and stop being depressed! WHICH I AM NOT!" and Gav says "NO. they say that bcuz they love you! if they say tht and they dnt even knw yew, atleast they care!! some people are completely ignored, you know that? no one talks to them, no friends, the parents barely care...and all that. But thats not how it is with you! Sue, are you just trying to kill yourself for this dude?? for Jo?? whats so special about him huh?! WHAT on earth makes you want to die for him? cuz if he left me as a best friend, i wouldnt want to DIE for that ass!" and THEN i said, "Hes special okay?! he sees things in me that no one could ever see! he sees every different emotion i hav, every different smile, every different laugh,every different tone of voice i use...its like i lived with him for 3 years!" and Gavin looked at me and didnt say a word! i was like..WTF say smethin dude. then he said "...Did he tell you that?" and i just nodded. and i thought to myself -why doz he care whut jo says abt me? -.- - then i asked "so huh? WHy do you think people want me to live huh? WHY do YOU want me to live?? im only a pain in th ass!" and thats whn he told me...but sometimes [like now] i hope what he said abt me was true...
"Sue...do you not know how happy i get when i see you? when i see you all retarded and making these s2pid jokes? and laughing at the stupid and lame jokes i make? When im sad, ur th only one ther who can make me laugh. even if im mad at you, u start laughing ur ass off, then i start laughing too. You know how much i would try to kill myself if one day you disappear? and ill lose all that joy??i mean, even in ur finals, i missed you like hell...remember th phone calls? NOT seeing you everyday makes me misarable -.-" so then, i thought, what if hes telling th truth? i mean, what if pple actually enjoy bein wif me?? WITH ME?? is that even possible?! ... :S
so i thought abt it fr a while and i still am...but, since i dont rlly blieve it [which sux tht i dnt blieve it] i thought why dont i live for Gavin for now? LOL.
so then we went out of th bathroom and i went back to Jos room, jus to bring back those amazing painful memories... :[
Gavin came in the room and cleared out all th sharp stuff :P so i was like "fuck you" [in a low voice] :P then he came to me and said "Im doing this for your own good.." then i said "i love you :[" SAD huh? yea i got a little teary eyed while writing this lol...then we hugged our asses off HAHA
that sounded wrong :P well, lets say we just hugged so tight. :D
SO, thats what happened yesterday. we had many many days before that were awesome...but yesterday was most special ♥ i mean, he saved my life!! :D
So...what else about him?
A life saver,
and best friend.
The End...
ON TO THE NEXT STORY!! XDDD[its gonna be short dont worry :P]
Mrs. Neutron :D
also known as "explossivekiss"
me and her met...hmm...2 months ago?
yea thats right, before my "friend" Fabi started dating her. -.- we acted lyk we barely knew each other infront of him! xDD
why do i love her alot?
because its nature :P LOL jk jk xD
she has millions of things in common with me, like shes kinda from the same country. shes kinda like Gavi in a way...like shes extreme skinny,and they like th same kind of music xD
i love her retardness! XD unfortunatly, shes leaving either to Canada or Jordan :[ sad. at the moment shes helpin me forget abt Jo. yea, she really hates him. she introduced me to the awesome side of disco, the most music i hate in my life. xD its weird how she made me like DISCO MUSIC!!
i wouldnt say there was only one specific moment tht was special,everytime we talk is special :D were both MCR-aholics xD which is awesome! XD well we just have millions in common :D
and pple reading this, to save u from ur boredom of readin this, i would have to say the end :D
The End.
SO LONG!! THANKS FOR READING!!!
OR
NO THANKS FOR NOT READING!! :DD
BYE!!!! <3
